I struggled so hard at one point I even tried to take my own life because I couldn’t deal with it...

Hi my names Abi I’m 28 years old and I’m from Cardiff. My anxiety and depression started when I was around 18. I had lost two people close to me within the space of 3 months, their deaths had really affected me as they were so sudden.

I went to the doctors as I felt so low and I couldn’t shake it off! My doctor put me onto anti depressants straight away. My depression and anxiety didn’t seem to be getting better and if anything I felt I was getting worse. I was having panic attacks so often I couldn’t hold down a job. I was so confused because I didn’t even have any idea what anxiety or panic attacks were at the time, I had literally never heard of them before. I started drinking and partying heavily to cope. I struggled so hard at one point I even tried to take my own life because I couldn’t deal with it anymore.

I started a mental health page on Instagram @anxiousabi to connect with others who face the same struggles and it’s been the best thing I’ve ever done.

There is always hope and there are so many people who can relate to you even if you find it’s not with the people in your everyday life. I used to hide what I was feeling and now I talk openly with no filter because I no longer let shame win. 

I will always have to deal with these demons but the main thing is you listen to your mind and body, be kind to yourself and remember you are a blessing to this world.

Abi xxx


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